Speak and Listen-Listen and Speak

Have you ever woke up feeling..not yourself, or just not enjoying life? Do you ever have those times where it seems like you're stuck in an emotional rut? and its not just one or two days in a row..its like 4 and 5 days. it's a week or two at a time. There's a word for it..

DEPRESSION.

Being a stay at home mom, people think that it's a piece of cake being able to stay at home all day, tend to the kids, cook and clean. Sounds simple and easy enough, right? WRONG!

We go stir crazy. We wake up with insecurities and emotions we'd rather not feel. Oh sure..why have insecurities? We've got it easy. Our man pays the bills, we tend to the easy shit. But really..it's more emotionally and mentally draining than what a lot of people think. We sit at home, day in and day out. We cook, clean, help with homework, change diapers, and many other things..DAY IN AND DAY OUT!!  If our men don't make time to make us feel special..  we start to feel worthless. We don't get many chances to go out and have a reason to dress up and when we do dress up WITHOUT a reason..does anyone really notice anyways? Sometimes we do it for ourselves, but let's face it ladies and gentlemen..WE DO IT FOR OUR MEN! When a women feel unappreciated or unnoticed..we seek that attention we so desperately need elsewhere. Like photos on social media. Just for anyone to say, "wow your hair looks amazing" or "damn girl you look so pretty". We don't seek just the males attention. Specially in a relationship but for just one random person to compliment us? that shit feels nice yet sad at the same time.... feels nice because our confidence is being boosted and sad because we shouldn't have to go elsewhere for that shit. Our man should be doing that. Then we get accused of cheating and other shit ONLY BECAUSE we want to feel noticed, pretty, appreciated. Men fail to ask themselves "what have I failed to do in order for her to want attention from strangers?". Well my dude...have you complimented her? with or without makeup? Have you taken her out lately? Done a "facebook shoutout" to make her feel NOTICE AND APPRECIATED? No? Then that's you're problem. You're failing to notice that she's crying out for you. For your love, affection and attention. Even if you tell her you love her everyday, and kiss her every night...what have you done out of the ordinary to make her feel EXTRA special and more loved than any other day? ONCE A MONTH IS ALL IT TAKES TO MAKE YOUR LADY FEEL GOOD! How can you keep a relationship exciting when you do absolutely nothing to keep if from being boring? YOU CAN'T! Us women, mothers, care takers, and lovers give our all. The GOOD ONES give their all into everything that we do. Hungry? Okay I'll spend an hour to three hours making sure we eat good tonight. We don't like a dirty house so i make sure EVERYDAY that it's clean. That if CPS walked in, they'd see zero problems. You sick? Let me make you soup and get you meds. But the harsh reality of it all is...nobody cooks us dinner. Nobody cleans for us. or gets soup, meds, or anything for us. It's not that we don't want to be taken care of but we feel that its our DUTY. Sick or not, mothers are ALWAYS doing their everyday routines because if they don't..who will? People don't put themselves in another persons shoes to figure out why they're depressed, sad, pissed, or happy. They don't ask themselves whats happening in order for a certain individual to feel anything but happy. I was told "you're relationship looks happy on the outside"...well of course it does. I don't want people i do and don't like asking me a million questions. So i smile and say everything is fine. But deep down, i know it isn't. I know I will go to sleep feeling some type of way and wake up some type of way. 

My dad once said that roughly around two years of being together, the "in love" stage fades and everything becomes a routine. A habit, if you will. The "i love you"'s and the "goodnight"'s. or even silly phrases you came up with in the beginning...all a routine by now. and it dawned on me...That's true. and if you do NOTHING to keep it fresh once in awhile...you're love will be a habit. YOU will be a HABIT. And it's not something that happens intentionally but it just..happens. 

With all of this being said...if you're feeling any type of way towards anyone...TELL THEM. hate, love, envy. whatever it is...tell them. And to those being told...LISTEN. Change something so their feelings towards life, love, and people in general will change. If you're mind isn't happy, you're body will get "sick" and so will your mind.

So please folks...SPEAK AND LISTEN. LISTEN AND SPEAK.

Stay happy. Stay honest. Stay humble and full of life. 

-Cline OUT

Where We Stand

It's not what we do tomorrow that determines our happiness. It's not what we said yesterday that should dictate our thoughts. It is how we live in the now that matters. Sure..you can think of what to wear tomorrow, or when you're going to see a significant other. But you can't sit around and regret what you said to your good friend yesterday over a dumb fight about which Kardashian will get the next face lift.. Things that can not be controlled once they are said and done need to be left alone.. That's why we have got to live in the here and now...Where we stand.

Trying to change things, will only complicate the situation more. That one d-bag that broke your heart and you tried so hard to get him to see just how truly wonderful you are...let him go. Stop chasing him. We are all chasing something. So if you're chasing him and he's not chasing you back...he's clearly running after the next. Don't torture yourself and make yourself angry over someone who's concerned about someone else.. Or that one friend who borrowed your shirt, gave it back with a stain or tear after they said they'd be careful with it. Yeah, you're going to get heated and want to smack something but don't. What good will that do? You'll feel a bit better, sure but now instead of just buying a new shirt..you have to make up to your friend for how you reacted too. Some situations..you have to sit back and ask yourself.."If I were to die tomorrow, is this really worth being mad about?". And since you have to ask that...no. no it's not worth being mad about. Step outside, take a breather, relax and continue on as if all is good. Just buy a new shirt. Drop the loser. Carry on. Don't lower your standards because the world is full of to many idiots.

With all of this being said...this is my first blog and even though it may seem scattered, bare with me. I'll get the hang of it. Stay tuned(:

Cline. OUT